Shit is falling all out of place for me . . Im tired of crying & stressing . Im tired of not having anyone there for me , im tired of being alone through everything. Its not easy when you USED to have someone there 24/7 at your call whenever. That transition is the worst . Wondering wtf that person is doing , wondering who’s making them happy , why they dont feel the way you feel about you . Just a few weeks before all of this , iwarned him & myself that something like this was going to happen. Ifelt it , but he didnt make it any better . Its hard to express myself like this , worldwide where anyone can see . Anyone cann say im ON him , but fuck it iknew him before this. Enough to know he’s not being himself & if he is god damn why did it have to take you this long to show your true self. Making me fall all the way inlove w/ you , Lord knows how hard it is trying to get over you . . Everyone keeps telling me its not gunna be easy & iknow its not . Istill feel like ima be here if you decide to come back , but something in my heart is telling me not to take it back so easy , This kind of hurt isnt me . This DOESNT happen to me , idont cry over a boy , over my feelings. My feelings are never really hurt BUT you hurt me :-[ :’[ . Idont wanna feel like this :T , got me thinking of suicidal thoughts & everything . Ihad my life planned out , you were my motivation . My future was with you :T Idont know what to say , ijust want this pain to go away iwant to be happy & forget about you , god needs to help me through this , please please make this be easier then what it is now . Igave him my everything , ithought that was enough :[